Imagine If They Realised I'd Find Out: 'We Are Sorry for Your Loss.' Bullshit. You Were All Delighted & Relieved That It Went According to Plan
Jordan Kelly • 6 June 2026

The 'Euthanasia' that I Later Learned Was NOT A 'Euthanasia' At All . . . But the Flawless Execution of An Utterly Evil Piece of Clinical 'Strategy' by 'Dr' Steffi Jalava . . . and An Assistant . . . But WHO Was That Assistant?

Christina Searle of Massey University’s grossly inaptly-named “Companion Animal Hospital”, I have questions for you.


BIG questions. And one way or another – especially since your employing institution is now the subject of an investigation by the Ministry of Primary Industries’ Animal Welfare Complex Cases Unit – I strongly suspect that one way or another, these questions WILL get answered. 
 
The context for my questions relates directly to my activities on behalf of the MPI investigators i.e. I was asked to forward every communication and all materials Massey has provided (or,
put more accurately, that I have thus far managed to extract).
 
In the process of doing that,
I trawled right back to the worst day of my life i.e. December 1, when – as I now know – the killing of my precious little papillon, Harry  (who had been admitted the prior evening for a straightforward rehydration procedure), was preceded by his  catastrophic, unnecessary and recklessly contraindicated overdosing with sedation cocktails by your midnight to morning ICU crew, which were then continued on into the next day by your day crew, for his conversion by your “teaching” staff into a university teaching and filming resource for students, before being then, after he was finished with by them, presented (or more, accurately, misrepresented) to me as having suffered some sudden “neurological” decline, with a two-hour coercion session (first by phone and then in a room alone with Massey's ICU high-pressure saleswoman, "Dr" Steffi Jalava) demanding I agree to his immediate “euthanasia”.


The 'Euthanasia' That Went Exactly According to Plan . . . Except that It WASN'T A 'Euthanasia' (As I Later Learned). It Was the Flawless Execution of A Plan that Required the Execution of My Dog.


It was an event that certainly had been planned. Meticulously, as far as extracting my (totally, uninformed) consent.  It was planned, alright. Just not by me.


So, for the benefit of readers, that’s the context for the questions I am hereby putting to Christina Searle . . . and I put those questions with the complete frankness of stating that I do not know whether you were “Dr” Steffi Jalava’s young offsider that (a) took the photos you emailed me from your email address two days later, on December 3, or (b) whether you sent them purely in your administrator / nursing co-ordinator role that I see on the Massey website.


Yes, I see your photo, but no, I still don’t know whether or not that was you that took the photos and participated in the horror in the van that was the “euthanasia” that didn’t need to be. The execution of the plan that required the execution of my dog.


Firstly, I was in seven shades of emotional hell, as the loving and devoted owner of a completely normal, albeit dehydrated little dog that had been standing up strongly on his little back legs and crying loudly for human comfort the night before when ICU staff had been completely ignoring him and was now suddenly apparently neurologically fucked and needed to be destroyed immediately, I was in uncomprehending shock.
 
Secondly, you shared
Jalava’s strange happy, heady energy and excitement and I didn’t want to look at you and have your face etched into my memory.


Thirdly, someone can look in a photo today very different to how they might have looked in real life yesterday.


Combine all that, and I don’t know if you were the happy, chirpy assistant that took the photos of a dog you MUST have known, HAD to have known, was NOT “dying” or terminally ANYTHING, but rather was just under massive, undisclosed sedation for use in multiple, unspeakably and unethically and unauthorised (by me, anyway) student "training" activities before being considered "finished with" and now a liability to the ICU's records (which were later falsified and a key component of his actual presence in the records, digitally deleted by someone with what is known as "God-view" access to confound any future possible investigation).


And I don’t know if it was you that took those “goodbye photos” knowing Jalava and your colleagues had willfully done your utmost to ensure that “goodbye” was necessary, and even then, knowing that he could possibly have been saved from what had been done to him if I’d been able to leave there and get him urgent overdose-reversal treatment at an actual place of care and a normality of clinical environment.


And did you know (as, if you were Jalava's offsider, you must have) why she really threw my scarf around his foreleg before she would allow the photos to be taken . . . dishonestly claiming it was "for his dignity"? If you were that assistant, you must have known the truth (that I found out two weeks later when I came across the invoice that was posthumously emailed to me and had never been shown to me that night when I paid it) . . .that that heavy blue cast on his leg was actually - as can be seen here on my dissection of the invoice and its revealing and dastardly line items - a Dura Flow Coil. That is,. a specialised, high-durability IV extension line, designed with a specific coiled architecture so that a patient in the ICU can move, stand up, and turn around in their cage without the line kinking or snapping. It's an expensive device built for a dog that is active, mobile, and recovering. (You don’t install a $200 MILA set on a dog you truly believe is neurologically fucked and "unfixable"  - per Jalava's highly sophisticated "Clinical Summary" notes i.e. "I told her I can't fix him." You COULD have, Jalava, but the first step in that process would have been to rewind the clock and have decided not to have fucked him in the first place, you psychopathic monster.)


And I don’t know if you were the one who stood there beside Jalava as my precious little blind dog – upon realising you and Jalava were standing at the door of my vehicle where the deed was to be done – suddenly reared up on his strong little back legs like a bucking bronco and began literally screaming (but I sure as shit want to know what she and you or that assistant participated in that day that made him react like that) . . . and watched as Jalava instructed a very confused owner (me) to grab his coat and pull him down hard onto his stomach so she could lethally inject him . . . which she did at the speed of light before I could comprehend his sudden reactivity (which I now, post-humously, realise was him again trying to break through the sedation) and change my mind . . . disgustingly ripping the cap off the syringe with her teeth like an animal herself.


I don’t know if that was you, Christina Searle, or if you’re just the admin person that emailed the photos on the actual assistant’s behalf. That young vet nurse or student or whatever her role is or was, is someone else that is still on my radar to confirm the identify thereof. But that identification WILL be done.


Unlike Your Determination that Harry Was Going To Have An Abrupt End Date, this Accountability Mission I’m on Doesn’t Have ANY End Date. Tell Your 'Colleagues' that From Me, Will You?


Now those are the core questions, but I have others.


Here they are . . . if it wasn’t you, please pass them to whoever it was that day. But – as an administrator and nursing co-ordinator, I would also like for you to ponder them yourself:


  • At what point in your veterinary training or nursing career did the human-animal bond — the very thing that almost certainly drew you to this profession in the first place — stop mattering? Research consistently shows that over 97 percent of students entering veterinary programs had childhood pets and were primarily motivated by a deep fondness for animals. What happened to that?

 

 

  • A veterinary law firm has written that vets must be "vigilant" because pet owners increasingly "anthropomorphise" their pets. That's the legal profession's “technical term” for the insulting and convenient diminishment of the deep and real bond that I shared with Harry. A word that frames love as a liability risk. Is that the lens through which Massey trains its students to view pet owners like me? Perhaps you laugh your asses off in derision when we describe ourselves as “pet parents”. The sad irony is that – with the level of fees you charge – your primary clients are people that see themselves just exactly this way i.e. as "pet parents". And you’re not afraid to make a monetary meal of them for it, either. (I'm guessing, from the obviously insider anonymous emails I'm receiving from "@takearealitypill.com" and "@getgriefcounselling.com" and "@getagrip.com" etc etc etc, the majority of Massey's veterinary staff view us with the same special Massey brand of contempt.)

 

  • Is that the vet nurse — or if you are a student, the vet — you want to become? Someone who cannot be trusted not to participate in the torture and fraudulent, coerced killing of someone's deeply loved pet?

 

  • Is that the human being you want to be?

 

And also, a more fundamental and clinical question:


If you were indeed the young woman who assisted "Dr" Jalava (you know, the sophisticated "clinician" who rips the caps off of euthanasia syringes with her teeth to get the job done before the pet's owner has time to figure out what's actually going on) that afternoon — what was your exact clinical mandate and authorisation to be assisting at that "procedure" (if it could be termed that)?


(That is, to be doubly clear, the “procedure” that you turned into a completely unnecessary termination of a little dog who, instead of being discarded after having become a live "training" tool and video subject, should actually have still been in your “ICU” ward simply completing the 24-hour rehydration that he was admitted for, and also, to be noted, that you billed me for.)


Or is that another question Massey would prefer remained unanswered?


Wicked. Wicked. Wicked.


Whether it was you or not, I cannot begin to tell you the utter contempt I hold for you, for your “We are so sorry for your loss” line, Christina Searle . . . when it was Massey staff's own heinous plans and actions that very intentionally caused my "loss".


Your own colleagues, or the very staff that you “co-ordinate”, tortured a completely viable, sweet, loving, trusting, distressed and disoriented little blind dog (who, being a Sunday night, was in the vulnerable position of having had no primary referring vet upon admission, and whose high-standards owner was intensely disliked by Massey), for 15 hours straight and then planned the fraudulent framing of their demand that he be killed immediately, without delay and without any independent input . . . along with everything else that went with the horror and the sheer evil of what was done to my precious pet . . . and by extension, me.


It brings a whole new meaning to "how do you sleep at night?"


Rot in hell with the rest of them.


Including your esteemed, twisted colleagues who sent me additional "happy snaps" i.e. the sadistic little circular cameos of Harry's tortured face after you had disconnected him from his IV rehydration fluids (after intentionally and repeatedly overdosing him with your special sedation cocktails so you could use him in your student "training" i.e. cruel, invasive "handling" and videos).


Or maybe it wasn't your esteemed colleagues. Maybe that was you?


I look forward to finding out exactly who did what "in due course" (Massey's favorite undertaking but one it has nil intention, of its own accord, of applying now or in any definition of "due course".)


But the truth is on its way. I have far more tenacity for ensuring that, than Massey and its Venerable Dean Jon Huxley ever realised when he set the clock ticking on what he no doubt thought was a short, sharp, shiny and effective legal threat . . . the nil result and now uncontrollable continuation of which has probably since wiped out nearly half his "teaching hospital's" annual operating budget.


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by Jordan Kelly 28 May 2026
Readers following the coverage of my attempts to get to the bottom of what happened to my beloved little papillon, Harry, with whom I was extraordinarily closely bonded, will know that: (A) The rot in Massey University’s Companion Animal “Hospital” (CAH) runs deep. (B) Honesty and transparency is not their policy. Denial, dismissal, stonewalling, legal threats and intimidation are. (C) Animals aren’t safe there, with cruelty embedded in “care”, and your property (as your pet legally is) not considered your property at all, as far as Massey, its CAH staff and management are concerned. Your pet is theirs ; to do with as they please, according to their mindset and their modus operandi. And if that involves catastrophic levels of unauthorised, contraindicated, convenience sedation to facilitate their use of your pet in monetised student video collections (including on private cell phones, and to which you will be given no access), this too, according to Massey, is its own God-given right and “best practice” Standard Operating Procedure. (D) “Informed Consent” has a very different meaning in the Massey playbook to that which is generally deemed its accepted definition. (E) “Accountability” is a foreign concept and not one with which they have any intention of becoming acquainted. (F) Laws – including those governing animal welfare, property conversion and more – are not only optional, in Massey’s case, they simply don’t apply. In fact, they appear blissfully ignorant of them according to my (and Harry's) experience. You know all that. You’ve read about it here , here , here , here , here , here , here , here and in most of my other now 30+ articles covering the numerous different sub-atrocities within the overall atrocity that was the demise and disposal of my precious little Harry. Actually, "atrocious" doesn't come anywhere near to being an adequate adjective. Despite having been a professional writer since I was 16 and having upwards of 25 published books under my belt, I don't actually have an adjective that's adequate for the pure evil that was perpetrated upon Harry . . . and, by extension, me . There is not one word or one phrase that can sufficiently convey the depth and breadth of the sheer, unadulterated wickedness that festers without restraint within the walls of Massey University's Companion Animal "Hospital". What you, my readers (or those of you not on Massey's massive legal team payroll) didn’t yet know – because I didn’t yet know – is that record and evidence tampering (which, for any other New Zealand citizen would attract jail time of up to 10 years under the Crimes Act 1961 Section 258 (Altering document with intent to deceive) or Section 260 (Falsifying registers) , and/or a $10,000 fine under the Privacy Act Section 212(2)(b) - appears also to be included in the “we’re exempt” culture of Massey and its veterinary “hospital” staff. Note to Readers: The above laws aren't some hypothetical, bottom-drawer, dusty old legal tracts in archaic library textbooks. They're real, "living" laws that apply to every individual in our country. And today, they are being made to apply to Dr Stephanie Rigg and her "colleagues" who falsified Harry's records to create a cover-up of what they did to him . . . and to me. I will, duly, see Dr Rigg and her associates in Court. Dissecting the Cover-Up: Massey’s Metadata of Deception But back to what readers do know for a moment: You’ll know that I’ve been in the battle of battles for the past two months to extract Harry’s full records (or anything approaching them) from Massey’s Legal and Governance department. HOWEVER . . . there was one thing I hadn’t known how to decipher that they actually had finally drip-fed to me. It was File Name: Patient Change Log (Field-Level Audit) . I’ve been learning a lot about veterinary science, record-keeping, and law in general lately. Not because I wanted to. But because if you want to figure out how deep the rot really runs at Massey, you kind of have to. So I’ve learned a bit about how to decipher clinical metadata. Just e nough to realise that this Patient Change Log (Field-Level Audit) is exactly where the digital fingerprints of a cover-up are hiding. Despite the fact that this document has as much redacted as it shows (probably more), with ALL staff names and positions blacked out, for example -I still found four distinct “smoking gun” entries in these otherwise heavily-redacted metadata logs. BIG. FAT. SMOKING. GUNS. that amounted to one undeniable overall conclusion: This document isn’t a clinical record so much as it’s a literal crime scene . There were already so many dodgy inconsistencies in the few items I'd managed to pull out of Massey to that point (as I've documented in various of my preceding articles). But this document is where, undeniably, the bodies are buried. You just need to know which clod of dirt to look under. Hidden in Plain Sight . . . In A Little Thing Called the Metadata (That the Average Pet Owner Wouldn't Even Know Existed ) There are four hidden but key findings demonstrating that the entire timeline of Harry’s “experience” in that hellhole were was orchestrated, and the sudden "neurological event/decline" exit strategy planned for him were a total fabrication. And that fabrication had a start time. (For this start time we will initially revert our focus back to Massey's previously-supplied "Clinical Summary" (in all its dodginess) . . . We will then lead from the immediately below into the afore-mentioned "Patient Change Log (Field-Level Audit)". Bear with me. I promise not to let this get boring). Well, one of two start times. Either: (1) The 8.38am disconnection of his (with, by-then, the TWO 750% overdoses of the renally contraindicated convenience sedative with which the "crying dog"-sensitive ICU staff had plied him overnight) now life-essential IV fluids (8.5 hours into the prescribed 24-hour protocol that they charged me for). And/or: (2) When the day shift ICU "vet" arrived at 9am and decided a THIRD 750% overdose would be a strategic way do deal with a clearly already massively overdosed little 3.8kg, 15-year-old, dehydrated dog. Now WHY would any vet take such a decision? Well, for legal purposes, of course (remembering that the Venerable Dean Jon Huxley and the obviously not- so-new-broom Vice-Chancellor Pierre Venter, have all the money in the public purse to pay their top-tier external legal counsel . . . and by gum, there are enough of the buggers, if this site's analytics are anything to be guided by), I will precede the following by stating that these are my conclusions, made on the basis of the collation and evaluation of the information before me. That said, what I know of my readers is this: You are no intellectual slouches. Feel free to let me know if you can come up with any other conclusion from the information (complete with now numerous "receipts") that I have thus far presented, most especially here and here , and most tellingly of all, in today's expose. R emember, though, I held the ultimate evidence in my arms at 6pm on December 1 . . . and, some 45 minutes later, I let them take it (safely, for them) away from me, just like Harry's (the literal body of evidence) life had just been taken from him. Little Numerals that Tell A BIG Story The plan for Harry's manufactured exit is not so much written into the records, as it is revealed by the tampering with the logs. They lay bare the lead vet’s apparent plan that his life would come to an abrupt end by the pre-scheduled time of (well, they couldn't quite get consistency in the logs regarding the exact minute, but by the absolute latest time of) 17:00 hours i.e. 5pm . . . assumedly, the end of the day shift on December 1. Just in time to mark him "Deceased" and seal off the records of this catastrophically overdosed patient, before the next shift came on, saw his records, and someone started asking the immediately necessary, and certainly appropriate, questions. And those questions would (0R SHOULD ) have included , but would certainly not have been limited to: How long has this dog been in this state? Why hasn't any rescue and remediation protocol been undertaken? Why was he given yet ANOTHER administration of 50mg of Gabapentin at 09:00 hours after the preceding two during night shift? Why is he disconnected from his IV fluids? Who approved that and why? (And if they knew he'd starred in a multi-video student film festival that morning): Was he taken out of his cage and handled in this state? When did he last drink? Was he given any food before he entered this near-comatose state? Does the owner know of the overdoses and the state he's in? Have you filled in an incident report? Have any emergency specialists been called in for advice? and, no doubt, many more questions. OR . . . maybe not. It depends if the rot in that ICU is fully immersive, or if it's concentrated on Dr Stephanie Rigg's day shift and the ICU shift staff of the preceding (November 30) night. But none of those questions could be asked and none of that could happen. The day shift - led by "Dr" Rigg ("Steffi") - wasn't about to let it happen. Thus, the pre-timestamped, just before end-of-shift, Time of Death entered into the "Euthanasia Authorisation" form that they had all queued up for me long before I ever arrived at that Godforsaken facility that fated December 1 afternoon.
by Jordan Kelly 28 May 2026
UPDATE: Since the original February 15 publication of this article, and despite Massey's ongoing efforts to obscure the identities of those involved , the clinician who delivered the fraudulent diagnosis and administered the lethal injection has been identified by her full name: Dr Steffi Maja Jalava . She is far from the only person culpable for the torture, fraud, and fully unnecessary termination of Harry's life . However, Jalava's completely false "terminal" "neurological" "diagnosis" and "prognosis" delivered throughout two hours of aggressive coercion - after " teaching" staff had finished their unauthorised and unspeakably cruel utilisation of Harry in student activities and filming - were the grounds on which I was duped into signing a "euthanasia" "consent" form . . . and worse still, participating therefore in the wrongful killing of my own deeply beloved dog . My investigation to uncover the names of the ICU staff who, on the night of November 30 , began the catastrophic repeated sedative cocktail overdosing , will continue. As will my endeavours to determine - what I believe is the near-certainty of the fact and the identities of whom administered - the undocumented continuance of the sedation prior to my arrival and the plan to present Harry falsely to me as having suffered some sudden "neurological" event or decline . . . so that I would sign the form for his immediate "euthanasia" . This Is What Happens When Massey Thinks THEY Own Your Dog & Can Do With Him As They Please (You Just Pay the Invoice) At This Appalling, Unaccountable Veterinary House of Horrors (LATEST PROOF OF 'LAB RAT' TREATMENT HERE )
by Jordan Kelly 28 May 2026
UPDATE: Since the original January 21 publication of this article, and despite Massey's ongoing efforts to obscure the identities of those involved , the clinician who delivered the fraudulent diagnosis and administered the lethal injection has been identified by her full name: Dr Steffi Maja Jalava . She is far from the only person culpable for the torture, the fraud, and the fully unnecessary termination of Harry's life . However, Jalava's completely false "terminal" "neurological" "diagnosis" and "prognosis" delivered throughout two hours of aggressive coercion - after " teaching" staff had finished their unauthorised and unspeakably cruel utilisation of Harry in student activities and filming - were the grounds on which I was duped into signing a "euthanasia" "consent" form . . . and worse still, participating therefore in the wrongful killing of my own deeply beloved dog . My investigation to uncover the names of the ICU staff who, on the night of November 30 , began the catastrophic repeated sedative cocktail overdosing , will continue. As will my endeavours to determine - what I believe is the near-certainty of the fact and the identities of whom administered - the undocumented continuance of the sedation prior to my arrival in order to facilitate the plan to present Harry falsely to me as having suffered some sudden "neurological" event or decline . . . so that I would sign the form for his immediate "euthanasia" . Off-the-Charts Evil: New Zealand's Veterinary House of Horrors . . A Pet Parent's Victim Impact Statement
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